**Down the medicine into the hatch.**

**Bye bye anxiety, hello euphoria.**

**But euphoria is only temporary.**

**When the medicine washes down my throat I finally feel at peace.**

**But not for long as the medicines affect wash away and I’m left alone with my heads thought. Long are the days of worry free thoughts.**...

Down, down, down

Flush the pills down the drain

Now no one can tell me

That I’m mentally insane

Did your daddy place you here?

Did he call you by your name?

I could tell you what it is,

but you’d probably think I’m to blame

You see the woman down the hall?

No, cause she’s not there at all

I thought I heard her moaning

Even listened to her cry

But its not like the movies

And I can’t explain why...

What’s this feeling? 

Im hurting again

My mind just spins and spins

I see colors, I’m only seeing red

I’m tired of all these voices in my head

Tired of this body and soul

This brain of mine

What’s wrong with me? 

Why can’t I reside? 

Leave me alone let me be 

I’m tired of you all ruining me

Running me dry 

Laughing at me

I’m tired 

So tired

Of everything...

Why oh why, do I feel like I do the same thing on a cycle.

I feel like a washing machine, spinning and spinning.

But the evil queen put me to sleep. In doing so, my innocence was stolen.

Or did someone above protect me from them taking this from me?

Sometimes she feels like she’s lost her head.

Sometimes I feel like going to the water, the rough oceans and washing away the toxicity in me...

My tears pour like rain,

Is there a purpose for all this pain?

I don’t want all this destruction to be in vain

May my tears imbue the land and stain

The earth with their memory of bane

The earth is a witness to my heartache

My tears have memory and validate

My story, the truth

Each teardrop holds a piece of my story

And encapsulates in bitter glory

Because water is living

It sustains li...

Moments in life.

Hit like a tidal wave.

One day,

To the next.

All of a sudden,

17.

17 17 17 17 17 17….

Dancing queen.

Young, and free.

17.

Uncomfortable on my tongue

Smile stretched wider than they could.

Core memories made in unlocking.

New day; New year

Brand new 17.

Choices, to be decided

Love isn’t lost and will be more found

The scavenger hunt is

Alright

because

It’s 17...

This is encompassing my life

Like a twist of the knife

In my back

A ruthless attack

I want to be done

Talking from moon to sun

But you keep going

And going and going

Until I can’t take it

My emotions are split

(And feel like shit)

I want to give up, give in

But neither of us win

It’s all a loss...

It can easy

Easier than we might think

To be forgotten about

Washed away

Replaced

But

There’s always hope

Always hope that there’s better people out there

Ones that won’t look at us

In that light

Ones that will nurture us

Protect our hearts and minds

Learn to understand all that we are

And never

Ever

Wash us away....

My memory of you is slowly washing away

I can’t express to you how much this pains me

How much it hurts when the waves of the present comes to carry away the memories of the past

But that’s the reality of it

The more minutes that go by

The days that slip away

I’m slowly living my life without you

And as life goes on

The more memories I create

The more life I live

It’s washing away your ...

This river of offering is a home I see too often

The water rolls over my body, purifying

Wash away my betrals and sins of my flesh

Give me a new soul from the father of undying

The river filled with blood that costs a high price

A price I couldn’t afford without my father

Your offering that I do not deserve

A lifetime of pure deeds couldn’t save my worth

My soul doesn’t want to sin, but my flesh...