Writing Prompt

I was okay once. I had friends, a family that loved me. Sitting by the ocean, watching the waves crash.

But then she came along Showing me things I didn’t need to see Every cut, every bruise a small wave But then she encouraged me. The tide came in and swept it all away.

I grow further from my friends, I hide so much from my family, I feel dead inside. My innocence, my happiness swept away by her waves.

I’ve been feelimg better lately I like my body more I feel secure frankly More confident Even if makeup is the key I am learning to do eyelimer perfectlu I am reading again and making friends I feel so free… Finally I hope this lasts for ever This washed way sense of dread The way it just left Sun after a drety day I hope I can bask In this sunlight for a while I hope they stay And I hope I keep feeling better The feelings washed away But high tide has yet to come today

The sea of despair has washed away my bliss, My heart leaving the safe shore into the ominous blue, The sand ignoring my plea for help, Instead letting me go, letting me be swept away.

I’m carried through the waves, My tears of my sorrow make the waters more cavernous, saltier, While the others around leisurely pass me by, Undoubtedly feeling just as weighted.

The waters stretch out endlessly, Illuding all of us to believe we’re trapped for eternity, Its tricks makes my hopelessness rise like a flood, But my weak heart must stay strong.

The desire to be free and happy is strong within me, Crashing over me like a great big tsunami, “Maybe soon,” I tell myself to drink my misery away easier, Maybe soon..

Maybe soon I’ll make it to the shore across the deep, Soon I’ll one day have the peace I deserve, And I know that you will too, Just please keep flowing through.

Maybe soon, Tell yourself, Maybe soon.

Glass smashing.

Lit torches and iced pipes passing.

Wakeful nights.

Sleepy days.

Exhale toxic clouds of crystal haze.

Nowadays,

Finding myself is a walkthrough of an endless maze.

I’m told I’m still in that heartbreak phase.

Continuously wiping these tears away.

Saline spray up my nasal passage ways.

Gaze through a mirrorless reflection.

Deception of stained glass,

Leaves a distorted traitorous image.

The devils glass,

Self mutilation, please put the razor down.

Life spun upside down and razed to the ground.

Beg to be doused of the fire that set me ablaze.

Help me break free of this near impenetrable cage.

As the tide reaches the sand Washing up treasures on the land But as the tide comes to play We watch our footprints wash away The memory of our fun Washed into the sea But our story just begun The tale of you and me.

Whe watched our footprints wash away But the sand sticks throughout the day Between our toes Now in our shoes Behind our ears In our hair too Our memories has left from the beach The Remaining stuck to you and me.

As our time reaches the end I lay with you Hand in hand It’s time to go Sadly so soon But we’ll meet again And with the tide too.

Down the medicine into the hatch. Bye bye anxiety, hello euphoria. But euphoria is only temporary. When the medicine washes down my throat I finally feel at peace. But not for long as the medicines affect wash away and I’m left alone with my heads thought. Long are the days of worry free thoughts.

Down, down, down Flush the pills down the drain Now no one can tell me That I’m mentally insane Did your daddy place you here? Did he call you by your name? I could tell you what it is, but you’d probably think I’m to blame You see the woman down the hall? No, cause she’s not there at all

I thought I heard her moaning Even listened to her cry But its not like the movies And I can’t explain why Nothing makes me feel better Than pretending I’m insane I’m a messed up human And pills won’t fix my brain Say goodbye to them now Going down the winding drain

What’s this feeling?  Im hurting again My mind just spins and spins I see colors, I’m only seeing red I’m tired of all these voices in my head Tired of this body and soul This brain of mine What’s wrong with me?  Why can’t I reside?  Leave me alone let me be  I’m tired of you all ruining me Running me dry  Laughing at me I’m tired  So tired Of everything

Why oh why, do I feel like I do the same thing on a cycle.

I feel like a washing machine, spinning and spinning.

But the evil queen put me to sleep. In doing so, my innocence was stolen.

Or did someone above protect me from them taking this from me?

Sometimes she feels like she’s lost her head.

Sometimes I feel like going to the water, the rough oceans and washing away the toxicity in me. The negative. I watch as it floats away, like a message in a bottle. A message asking for help.

But then I’m put back to sleep.

Not again though, the cycle was broken by a moon shadow. A gambler so to speak. It had me singing, “I know you, I dreamt of you once upon a dream.”

Sometimes I think I’m crazy. Am I writing about myself or someone else? Am I being listened to? Man oh man I feel it in the bones, I know it. I knew it from the highway 23. The lucky charm.

All I can do is dream, or all she can do is hope right? Or he?

Sometimes I wonder. Can the dirty be washed away.

To be continued…

From… Crazy lace agate, bear. The light to the dark.

My tears pour like rain, Is there a purpose for all this pain? I don’t want all this destruction to be in vain May my tears imbue the land and stain The earth with their memory of bane

The earth is a witness to my heartache My tears have memory and validate My story, the truth

Each teardrop holds a piece of my story And encapsulates in bitter glory Because water is living It sustains life And brings life to my memories

You can weave your lies any way you like But my tears will tell the truth when you lie Their memory affirms you’re the one who made me cry

My tear trickle like a stream Changing my past into a bad dream

Tears in sunshine rain bow