As I stand facing the ground bellow, my vision blurry with tears welling in my eyes. As I stand there trying to calm my breath and basking in the light summer breeze, as the sun begins to descend. I stand and I look upward. As I see the stars slowly start to sprinkle into the rapidly quick darkening sky, and I talk to you.

“If you were still here, would it all be different.” I bite my lip holding back more tears. “If I could hold your hand and you could tell me ‘it’ll be okay’ would it all be different.”

I pause, and stare back down at the floor bellow me, the drop was beginning to seem a lot more ‘real’ the more I looked down as if I was staring into the dark abyss. I began to look back up slowly, the stars now dancing around the night sky.

“Why did you leave me? Why did you go!?” I screamed up into the sky and the stars seemed to stand still, and the wind froze in shock. The noise seemed to disappear for a moment. Then all at once resumed. “You have abandoned me, you have left me with this hurt to burden alone. Every waking day the exact same, reliving this awful nightmare you have left me in. Alone.” I look back down, the drop not seeming as frightening as before. Then quickly dart my head back up to face the sky.

“Well, I won’t be alone much longer, I will be with you shortly. We will not be apart anymore, finally together and free, dancing with the stars, along the rings of saturn, around the milkyway, and sometimes… maybe, we can look back down on earth and think about how we are no longer bound by this mortal realm. I’ll be with you again…” I face the floor once more. Pondering on the words I just spoke, would that really be better…?

It would.

I stare back up and as if making a promise I yell,

“We will be together. I will not walk this earth without you…”

Then look back down for the last time, and take a step.