When I died

My shadow decided they would take over

I watched carefully

Knowing I could not brace for what my shadow would do

Knowing I couldn’t apologize for all they would hurt

They spoke crudely

They did not hold back their emotions

Even though I was dead

I had never felt so alive in my body

They spoke crudely

But they spoke the truth

Something I could not do myself

I admired that

I wish I had lived that way

Now I have realized

I am the true shadow

I was the one hiding from myself

When really

The one following me

Was the one who should have lead

Maybe I would’ve lived happier if I had lived

Speaking my truth

To be bold like my shadow knew

I never could have