I wish tears

Would fall but

I feel nothing at all

There’s this dull ache

Inside that doesn’t go away

Wake up, get ready, eat,

Go to school, get home,

Finish my homework, eat,

Study, shower, sleep, repeat

Over and over, weekend comes

And goes but I never did seem

To get enough sleep

The constant questioning if

I’m okay finally stopped from

All but my parents, everyone

Else believed the mask

Lost my extrovert and out-going

Self falling into the lies that

My ‘friends’ and bullies feed me

Everything is draining, and I don’t

Feel anything apart from tiredness

Everyday I pray to be able to feel

Something, gain some energy, and

To break out of this daily pattern

If only I could feel something,

Anything other than mentally and

Physically tired

Bottling everything while keeping

The mask on is exhausting I just wish

That could yell or cry just something,

Anything to save me from

Spiraling deeper