There I lay, after everything I’ve ever known was taken from me. My reason and devotion for living now disappeared through my hands. Maybe it’s because with these same hands I took too much. Biting the hand was too small for my greed and ego so instead I took the whole arm. Now I have nobody to hold in my arms. Instead my arms and I lay on this green grass, gaunt from the lack of love I’ve introduced to my life. The cost of an arm isn’t bartered with basic currency commodities. The cost is equivalent to a sacrifice, a sacrifice that ends with me even more alone. I have more arms now but I still only have one heart to hear beating, one mouth to speak from and only one set of ears for my words to enter, and these words are my own. My sight is blurry and cold, my cheeks are similarly flushed with a relatively cold feeling. I would like to get up to view my surroundings but I lack all motivation to do it. I’m drained as if the soil under me is absorbing my will to live and turn it into the trees and flowers that surround me. I’ll shut my eyes for now and hopefully awaken in a place full of blissful angels, however I probably belong to the not so happy afterlife option. Anywhere is better than here I suppose. Before I knew it I drifted off into a state of what felt like a nonexistence. I didn’t have any thoughts which is nice because those were the only things in my head prior to dozing off. Not having thoughts meant I had no worries nor regrets. It was truly blissful. Maybe my paradise was with me the whole time, it’s too bad nobody got to experience because I never experienced it for myself. I awaken to the smell of rain. Opening my eyes unveiled a sea of grey painted over the once blue sky. However, this clouded sky shared no similarities with my mind. My mind was clear and concise, on the mistakes I made, not mistakes actually but choices. The reason I say choices is because what may seem like a mistake to one person is the right decision to another. So choices is a better word to describe the actions I partook of that placed me in my current destiny. Rain began to fall right around the tears in my eye began to dry. So here I now lie with more arms than one would need, no longer alone for I have myself like I always have.