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I could hear my window being opened up all the way and I sat up to see Draya climbing through it.

“Draya what are you doing here?”

“I want to talk.”

“Oh now you want to talk? I tell you that I love you and so you dump me and then ghost me for 5 days! I tried texting and calling you! I lost count of how many messages I must have left you! Hell the third day I went over to the house, I stood there ringing the door bell and knocking for hours! I was about to give up when Celeste answered the door; then I ask to see you and she tells me that you don’t want to see me…” Hot trears of anger and hurt are running down my face now. “…It broke my heart to hear that! It was devastating and yet I still tried to get into contact with you! I wanted answers hell just wanted to hear your voice anything but tonight I just gave up because it seemed pretty clear to me that you wanted nothing to do with me. I was just done with it. Done being hurt by every call you didn’t answer and every text you wouldn’t respond to. I couldn’t take it anymore! So I was done. You show up and now you want to talk? How do you have the fucking nerve?”

“Darling…” she said reaching out to touch me probably too try to wipe my tears away because she always did but I stopped her. “Don’t touch me! And don’t call me darling or princess; you don’t get to call me that anymore. You can call me Sarah and that’s it!”

She with drew her hand and sat down at the end of my bed. “I never wanted to hurt you Sarah. I really didn’t. I was being stupid and foolish I know that now. When you told me you loved me in that moment I knew that I love you too.”

“Then why Draya? Why did you start avoiding me and acting like I didn’t exist? You don’t do that to people you love.”

“Because it terrifies me! The last person that I felt this way about… was Shaylyn and it ended tragically. I didn’t want to feel that way again. When I lost Shaylyn I vowed and swore to myself that I would never fall again, never love again because it hurts to much in the end and I didn’t ever want to hurt like that again.”

“You really think I would hurt you?”

“Not intentionally, no, but the fact is that you are human and humans don’t live forever. Shaylyn died in my arms; I watched the life literally drain from her. I saw the light leave her eyes, felt her body go cold and still, heard her heart beat one last time. I felt like some part of me died too; hell I wished I was dead. I don’t think I could bare it if that happened to you; because I don’t want to be without you. You have become my everything. It’s like we’re two sides of the same coin and one cannot truly live without that which makes it whole; you make me whole Sarah and I haven’t felt like that in a very long time. I don’t want to lose you. I was an idiot and I hope you can find it in your heart even though I broke it to forgive me.”

I wanted to forgive her too. I wanted to throw myself into her arms and tell her all was forgiven. But I couldn’t, not after what happened, not at risk of my already damaged heart, not if she would put me through this a second time. I wasn’t ok with a short term relationship anymore; maybe I never was, all I knew for certain was I couldn’t lose her again. I couldn’t go through this again. “No Draya, I might forgive but not forget. I don’t think I can take you back, not if this is still just a short term thing, not if you are going to leave in a few months and then leave me again. I won’t go through this a second time. I can’t!”

“I have no intention of going anywhere; and if I did I wouldn’t go without taking you with me. I am all in.”

I wasn’t sure what to think, or feel, I wanted to believe what she said I really did but there was a part of my brain that said I had to be smart and protect myself from more hurt. That she shouldn’t get off so easily. Shouldn’t treat me this way without any consequences. Shouldn’t be allowed to break my heart and get away with it.

But there was another more reckless part of me that said Fuck it love is all about taking risks so go ahead and take a leap of faith for once in your life. That was the part of me that won out. “I’m all in too and I think I am about to do something very stupid.”

“What’s that?” she asked

“This!” I said surging forward and pressing my lips against hers and after a moment of surprise she was kissing back. Oh fuck did I miss kissing her, holding her, touching her. I felt Draya’s warm tongue slide against my lower lip and I willingly parted my lips allowing her to slip her tongue inside. She began to explore my mouth with her tongue running it across the roof of my mouth and caressing the inside of my cheeks and oh my fucking god why had we not done this sooner? We kissed like that for a long time but unfortunately for me I needed to breathe.

We were both breathing hard when we broke the kiss.

“So can I call you darling and princess again?” She said. I think she was trying to lighten the mood or flirt with me or both.

“Oh just shut up and kiss me again!” I demanded and she did using that wonderful tongue of hers for a second time. I started pulling at her clothes and she began to do the same as we started to undress each other until the only things we had left on were our panties. We fondled each others’ breasts while we kissed, moaning into each other’s mouths. Draya started to kiss down my jaw and down my throat sucking and nipping along the way kissing down my breast flicking her tongue against my hard nipple before swirling her tongue around it and then sucking it in while she continued to fondle the other one. I tangled my fingers in her hair, god this felt so fucking good. She finished with my first breast and moved over to the second one. I was loving this and I wanted more; wanted to have her touching more of me, wanted her to finally take me completely. I untangle my hands from her hair and slide them down her body until I reached the waistband of her panties and started to try to push them down. When she noticed this she released my breast with a pop. “Darling what are you…?”

I didn’t let her finish her sentence. “I want you, all of you right now. I want you to take me, fuck me, make love to me.” I said as I continued to try to push her panties down. She sook her head grabbing my wrists and pushing them away from her panties. She moved my hands upwards and then pinned them down on either side of my head. I let out a noise between a wine and groan of protest.

“No princess.”

“Why don’t you want to…want me?”

She smiled at me “You have no idea how much I want this and you but not like this. I don’t want this to be a heat of the moment thing that you might regret in the morning; so sleep on it; just for tonight and if in the morning, when you have a clearer mind…if you still want to then we will do it tomorrow night at my place okay?”

I sighed “Yeah ok. Can we still cuddle at least?”

“Of course princess, come here I’ll be the big spoon.” she said pulling the covers over us before wrapping her arms around me. I relax against her body, drifting peacefully off to sleep.

I woke up with Draya’s arms still around me. I kept my eyes closed and sighed contentedly trying to pretend to still be asleep. “Good morning princess.” Draya whisperers in my ear. I never could trick her, she could always tell when I was awake.

“Good morning” I replied but still kept my eyes closed.

“Are you still tired?” She asked me.

“No, not really but I am enjoying being held by you too much right now to want to get up.”

“Good because I have no intention of letting you go any time in the very near future.”

“I am so glad my parents are out of town right now.” my mom and dad were out of town for a while visiting with an ill family member.

Draya kissed the back of my neck and the desire of last night returned.

“Some one is easily excited today.” Draya said with a chuckle

“How could you tell?”

“Your heart rate increased.”

“No fair using your vampire super powers!”

“Sorry but it’s not exactly something I can help darling.”

“I know but it would be nice if I could keep some secrets from you.”

“I still can’t read your mind so you can keep some secrets.”

“Draya….I’m really happy you came back and that we are together again.”

“As am I darling. I have missed holding you, the feel of your warm body against mine, your sent, the little noises you make while you sleep.”

“I don’t make noises when I sleep.”

“Yes you do and they make you even more adorable if that’s even possible.”

“I’ve missed our playful banter too.”

“I’ve missed everything; as I said before, you are my universe. With out you it was dark all the time you were there to rescue me and I forsook you and I know that I will be making up for that for the rest of eternity but if it keeps you with me then I will gladly do it all.”

“Draya, you came back that is what matters.“

“No, because I never should have left in the first place. I was such a fool and I am grateful that you are willing to forgive a fool like me. I am so lucky to have you and was too blind and stupid to see it but now that I realize it I am never letting you get away or letting go of you ever again.”

“Same, I refuse to ever lose you ever again! I love you too much to allow that.”

“So am I safe in assuming you still want to…” she trailed off

“What? have sex? Yes I still want to.”

“You’re sure? Absolutely sure?”

“Draya my angel I love you and I want to be with you so yes I am absolutely 100% sure I want to do this and I might be a little nervous and the slightest bit scared yes but I think that’s normal I mean it’s my first time after all but I trust you I want this…do you?”

“Yes of course I do. I love you too from now until the end of all enduring time.”

“Then that’s all that matters.”

“In that case I better go home I have a lot to prepare.”

“No don’t go, not yet.”

“You’ll see me tonight, and don’t you have school today?”

“Yes and I know that I will see you tonight I just want to be held a little longer. 5 maybe 10 minutes tops.”

“How about 15 more minutes will that be enough to hold you over until tonight?”

“There will never be enough time to sate me but I will settle for 15 minutes for now.”

Draya pulls me close and I relax in her embrace.

I tried protesting again when the 15 minutes was up but it didn’t work. “You ou need to get ready for school now princess and I will see you tonight. I will be picking you up 6 sharp.”

“Ok I suppose I can endure until then.” She kissed my forehead and then my lips before disappearing though my window.

As I got ready I felt as if I was walking on air. All felt right with the world again and I felt happy again I couldn’t stop smiling and smiling.

Tracy noticed this immediately when she picked me up.

“Your mood has improved.”

“Draya’s back!”

“She is? Since when?”

“Last night she came over and told me that she was sorry about what she did.”

“And you forgave her? Just like that?”

“No I gave her a piece of my mind first. She knows what she did was wrong and she regrets what she did and then yes I forgave her.”

“You are a better person than me Sarah. I am not that forgiving.” Tracy said pulling away as we went to pick up Hallie who when told the news threw her arms around me hugging me tightly. “Hallie, sweetie, can’t breathe.”

“Sorry..” she said releasing me “I am just so happy for you!”

Kelsey squealed in delight when we told her and was practically bouncing up and down in her seat.

Brian had driven Raquel to school that morning but when we saw them and I told them Brian was so happy I thought he might announce that he was going to throw a party in my honor. Raquel lightly smacked him on the back of the head saying “Boy you have got to learn to contain your enthusiasm. I swear you are going to embarrass me one of these days and yourself too.” Then she turned to me “I’m glad that you and Draya are back together and that you are happy? You just weren’t you these past few days you know what I mean?”

“Yeah I think so, it was like I had a dark storm cloud hanging over my head.” I said

Then the bell rang and we made our separate ways to go to our first class.

I felt like I was walking on sunshine. Nothing could ruin this day. Mot even Nasty Nicki who decided to grace us with her presence at lunch, but I refused to let her spoil my good mood and pretend that she simply did not exist.

“So when are you going to see her again?” Kelsey asked as Tracy drove us home

“Tonight and I am spending the night at her house.”

“Really? Want us to help you get ready?” Kelsey asked

“As much as I love you guys I know that you won’t leave if you stay to help me so no I think I can handle it.”

“Oh come on Sare Bear you’re no fun.” said Hallie

“The answer is still no and I am a joy to be around.”

“Yeah you are, so Hallie, Kelsey quit teasing Sarah.” Tracy said

“All I gonna add is don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” advised Raquel

“So basically nothing is off limits, good to know.”

“You know what I mean! Be careful.”

“I will.” I said and not long after that Tracy was pulling up to my house I bid my friends goodbye and went inside to get ready

THE END to be continued in story titled The First Time