This is coming from the real irl me

Why do my friends not contact me as much?

Are they using Snapchat and I don’t have it? I’m not allowed to having it right now and I’m not sure I will. But I know that they do. And Snapchat works better on several of there phones than actual text so they use that. That means I’m left out of the conversation. I don’t know what’s going on. I get news much later than the rest. I get plans later. It’s annoying. I don’t feel included with them.

I just need to find new friends.

But where can I find the friends that understand me truly?

Where can I find the friends that notice when I’m down?

Can it just me one real friend?

I’m not a big fan of huge friend groups as it makes the relationships feel less connected.

I want one or two real friends that truly understand me and know when I’m down even though I say the opposite.

Uuuuuuuggghh!!!

I hate being lonely in high school. High school is almost over for me.

But what am I to do now?

I know I want to go to college but what will be my major?

I feel stuck and paralyzed in place.

I don’t know what to do.

I need my mentality to change so I can connect with people differently than I do.

It sucks, the way I connect to people. I can’t put it into words as to how I connect to people.

I also connect with 2-5 people and those are my people until I realize they aren’t. I prefer to stick with them for as long as possible even when I know my relationship with them isn’t healthy for me.

I need help in everything about my life!!!!