I am gonna be alone again

I voiced my fears but no one listened

I had been alone before

I knew the feeling

deep down

the dread of waking up in the morning

going another day by yourself

I knew i was becoming alone again

when they didnt pick up the phone

when they stopped texting back

When i became a distance memory

the feeling slowly creeped up on me

and sat on my shoulder for a while

I knew it was getting worse

When no one texted me anymore

When my best friend moved on

When all I felt was sorrow

Whenthat little feeling that sat on my shoulder

Had become one with my heart

I knew I was alone

When I cried all the time

When my only friend was my cousin

When I sat in the shower writing poetry

When I opted out of having a birthday party

because i didnt want it to get worse

I knew I was oh so alone

When people were to busy for me

When I was babysitting again

When I was scared to vent to my sole friend

in the fear she might leave me too

I knew it then

That it was all becoming real