Just Rambling
Kinda the prompt also a bit long
Iām so SICK of hiding
Cloaking myself
But itās for their own good
Theyāll probably die of shock
If they ever found out
That their little princess
Has been dead for years
And they have been conversing
With a corpse
Someone ounce so pure
Now being controlled by
Someone so crazy
But apparently
Iām just being dramatic
Teenagers am I right?
And I am perfectly sane
But my question is
Would a sane person wanna die?
Would a sane person befriend the
Voices in her head?
Would a sane person laugh when
Blood spills from her wrists?
I didnāt think so
And ya know itās kinda funny
Hilarious actually
How thereās only
One person
In this ENTIRE universe
Who actually understands
And even they donāt want me
But itās okay
I donāt want me either
Whoever that is
He or she
Got lost in the void
Now I just fix myself to be
Hey bro
Yass queen
Heelloo
Aww stawp
Or whatever it is you want
Cuz what I learned the hard way
Is that people
Theyāre picky man
And the REAL me
Is either too much
Or not enough for them
No In between
So Iām forced into
This facade
Fighting for someone
Anyone
That will
Love me
Hold me
Accept me
Stay with me
Until this anxiety attack passes
And tell me that
I matter
But Iām to obsessive
So I have to play pretend
But oh lord
Iām so sick of hiding