~November 2~ I don't know why I'm doing this. I've never made a diary. I guess now I feel like I need to give an explanation or something for something I'm thinking of doing? I don't know. I mean like no one's gonna care anyways haha... I might just end the diary here. ~November 6~ Haven't I suffered enough? What have I done? I've tried my best. I've been patient. I've stayed kind to others when they haven't. Why won't they stop? ~November 8~ The past is haunting me again haha. ~November 11~ Funny that I'm always such an easy victim. ~November 12~ Rumors hurt. Please don't spread them especially if they're fake. Especially if you did it to me, but you said I did it to you. Please. Just don't hurt people for your own attention. That's my wish for when I'm gone. ~November 15~ Just please don't hurt people. It affects them for a long time. It's hard for them, ok? They feel lonely. They don't have anyone. Everyone leaves them because they believe in the lies spread. Please just don't. ~November 18~ It's my fault, isn't it? All of this? I understand now. They don't want to be close because of me. Because I'm a disappointment. I couldn't even clean my room. It's a mess and I'm a mess. Because I'm an attention-seeker? I talk and make jokes because I want to be noticed. I should stop. Maybe people will forgive me. Maybe they will be happier. ~November 21~ They still won't look in my direction. I guess I was useless anyways haha. I should've guessed. ~November 24~ It's getting worse. ~November 29~ I want to, you know. Hahaha.