"Hey!" I called out to him, but he kept on walking away.

"Hey! George!" I called out again and finally, he turned around. I slowly walked to him.

"Yeah, why?" He asked surprised and curious.

"I-" As my tears welled up in my eyes from my fear of being right about an upcoming rejection and being wrong for ever loving him, I knew I needed to know for sure. I needed to tell him.

"Hey, Quinn, what...

Laughing as I jumped into the waters,

You knew of their dangerous calls.

Laughing because you blocked out the sounds,

But made me listen to their enchanting song.

No rope to keep me grounded,

You smiled as I obeyed their whispers.

No promise greater than theirs,

A greater relief to let go of life's strings.

- Kezia (my friend's work)...

A villain in the making,

I'm the lead in my motion picture.

All the time it's taking,

Kindness seems to be a fiction.

All my good deeds,

Returned with a piece of their envy.

Every single one of my needs,

Thrown away without second thought.

Lesson learned,

No good left on earth.

Backs turned,

That's when they talk.

I'm not a backstabber,

I'll fight face to face.

Not to be a bragger,

But the evil...

~November 2~

I don't know why I'm doing this. I've never made a diary. I guess now I feel like I need to give an explanation or something for something I'm thinking of doing? I don't know. I mean like no one's gonna care anyways haha... I might just end the diary here.

~November 6~

Haven't I suffered enough? What have I done? I've tried my best. I've been patient. I've stayed kind to others when...

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I might make this idea into an actual book under my real name. Of course, with better writing and plot and stuff since this is just an idea. So yeah lol hi.

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Then it begins. I stuffed all the weapons, pushed in a lot of ammo, and put the other important things in my duffel bag. The others started to immediately load their guns and use the other things on spot, except my two best fri...

"Isn't it hot, Lenny?" My friend turned to me. Yes, it was a hot day, but I wouldn't take off my jacket for anything.

"Nah, I'm fine."

"There's no way you're not hot."

"Oh, thank you," I winked at her.

She slapped my shoulder, "oh shut up!"

We laughed and continued talking about other things. I was thankful that we didn't talk more of it. There was a specific reason I always used jackets.

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Step.

Away from the ghosts and demons that haunt me from my past.

Step.

Away from those who can hurt me.

Step.

Away from the stress that keep my notebooks wet from tears.

Step.

Away from all the overwhelming responsibilities.

Step.

Away from the constant pain.

The final step.

As I free fall to the quickly approaching ground.

Wait!

I don't want to be away from my loved ones.

Too late. ...

"I wish," I shake as tears drips down my face, "I wish-"

"Don't you dare say it!" He begs as he steps closer to me.

"I just wish that-"

"No, please," he takes another careful step closer.

"Why not?" I ask, as I hold the knife closer to my heart that it touches my shirt.

"Because I love you. Please we can get through this together."

"I love you too. But-"

"No buts please. Just put away the knife pl...

My default is to think,

Think of my studies or my friends,

Of the past or the future.

Thinking is a tool,

A tool is neutral,

Until it is used with a motive.

It is a skill,

It is a practice,

Until it becomes a habit.

Thinking leads to consequences,

Sometimes good,

Sometimes bad.

I think and think,

They say I think too much,

I think about you and life without you.

You are my never-ending though...

TW

Everything started to fade. I felt relieved as I saw the blood on the floor. My blood. As it dripped from my wrist to the forming pool on the floor, I saw a reflection. My reflection staring back reaching for me. As it pulled me closer and closer to the ground, everything turned black.

I opened my eyes and it looked like my normal day in school. Perhaps I had just been dreaming. However, I wa...