i knew it would happen. i mean, come on, i’m not stupid. it’s just how life works. i am leaving. you are staying. that’s that.

no more summer skies of endless smiles or the sound and smell of the shore as the waves shine only in comparison to you. no more fields of sunshine and sunflowers. no more dinners of fancy salmon and you reluctance to get used to the scent even though it’s my favorite and i order it every time.

no more time i get to spend taking in all of your features. the shimmer of your eyes, the glow in your lipgloss, the warmth your checks receive when you sit and explain to me your obscure and recent hyper fixation. even the dips and curves of your nose are angelic. and i have to remember it all.

because who knows when i will see you next.

i will become busy. with work, with tasks that don’t seem to matter when i could be living a life right by your side. but i can’t be here. i can’t be chained to you anymore. because you will refuse to grow if i stay. it hurts. it’s such a shame.

so i will sit away and hope, pray to some semblance of a god, that you are alright without me. because you need to be. i am not good for you anyways.

please continue to shine, my starlight.