i watch as you get undressed criss cross engraved in your back from that bra you just can’t live without. my my my fingers want to trail across touching every inch of your body until you beg for me to stop because you just can’t handle it. i watch from afar our little secret “no one has to know” i breathe. it’s tuesday you’re going to go out with your friends i’ll stay home and give you your time you’ll return and be all mine. i’ll sit up wait for you to come through those doors get undressed for me once more, my darling. no, not that one. you hold that red dress up in the mirror it’s not that i don’t like it, because i do. it’s that they’ll like it. i never tell you these thoughts you don’t need to know i’m jealous. i breathe relief when you decide on jeans your ass will look wonderful. no makeup. that’s my woman. “be safe, have a wonderful evening” i mumble i can’t help but watch as you leave looking you up and down “shut the door behind you” now comes the waiting game. the light comes on from the hallway. finally you’re home. i’ve waited for this moment for hours. the door creeps open, i sit up to enjoy my show. you’re staring out the door rufus must not be cooperating tonight. to my surprise, though it’s not rufus that emerges from that door. why must you do this to me? he’s got to be six foot three, the way he absolutely towers over you. who is he? that’s not your brother. i don’t know him. he gets close. too close. you’re not going to kiss him, are you? my blood absolutely boils. right in front of me? you play this game? i walk back in forth i can’t just sit here and watch you ruin us this. “baby, please” he’s slipping your shirt off grabbing the ass that belongs to me. i won’t do this i won’t let you mess this up. my skin turns red when i step out into the freezing skies you’ve upset me enough i left without another thought no jacket i can only pray my keys are still in my pocket. i cross the street without any look horns honk but i don’t care. you’re the only thought in my head. your building man doesn’t question me. he knows i’m here for you. fifth floor room 243. we share a layout just apart by one street. at your door i hear you moaning. soon enough i’ll be okay with it. i won’t lie, i don’t remember. what happens after i kick your door down. rufus let me in without a sigh. he would protect you if he knew i was any threat. i did see red. maybe it wasn’t just in my head. but i’ll take care of any mess just as soon as your pretty head rests. “lay with me, doll” it doesn’t take much convincing. i know you’ve missed me. “i can forgive you” i always will. there’s dark people out there that want to mess with what we have it’s so beautiful here with you. the beauty of our story is you’re mine. rough bumps will try and tear us apart others will try and convince you to betray me but they can not succeed. i watch as you twitch with my fingertips rubbing up and down your arm soft moans begging me to never stop “don’t worry my dear” i whisper “we will never be apart” and that is my promise to you.