One step forward is two steps back. I didn’t know it at the time but I wasn’t going anywhere fast. Steps back in time is where I wanted to climb . But there’s nothing for me back there. I liked to think I was going to be a big actor or a great icon. That was something that almost seems impossible now. How could a small child have such large aspirations. Well those aspirations are nurtured. What happens if they’re not ? Then they become dreams. Dreams don’t come true. You make dreams into a reality. I didn’t make those dreams , I soiled them. I watched my reality second by second whimper into each day. My dreams were simply that dreams. HA such a funny thought the idea of doing “whatever you want” that seems folly to me. If I was doing whatever I want I’d be far away on a distant planet talking to aliens about the difference between cakes. Seems so dumb. But dumb was much more fun to ponder than real. Reality didn’t make sense, too much happened wrong. Too many wrong doings were done by the ones who claimed they had the best interest of those around. I wonder if they know that they’re just in a loop . A loop that only continued because well , two lefts will always have you in a circle and you’ll never experience a right turn if you don’t change path. But what happens if you don’t change path they asked me ? Well look at me now, one step forward and another two back. Stuck in time still thinking of my dreams. Dreams that will never be fulfilled, dreams that will be forgotten by tomorrow. And remembered by the night. No matter what happens that dream will not come true, it must be made . And these will not be made.