I heard the news, are you okay ? I’m recovering but I’ll be fine. Are you sure ? You’ve lost your whole life Yes and ? It’s a life I wasn’t worthy for , on to the next How can you say that ? Your family wanted so much more … I don’t… I don’t know how to explain to you , I failed my father, I failed my mother- You fail nothing you are a success as you have lived and breathed todays air- Air I borrow from tomorrow My sorrow isn’t yours to swallow. I will never be able to forgive myself Please don’t attempt to make me. I will not , you will pity your own self but know the people of this land , they need a new leader who would be anything for you , a knight , a cook , a teacher; I would be anything for you. And why would you do that ? You are our hope , your families passing is tragic , but life does not end here , you must stand and approach the world with the same strength and dignity your father once did. I cannot speak to the people , they could not speak to me. They don’t know what they don’t understand. Take advantage of that fact , and make up for the atrocities you’ve committed. Now.

I don’t think we’ve ever seen eye to eye have we ? You watch thoughts rush out of my head and you oppose every single one of them. They’re not real. They’re just my brain without a blockage. My brain has an alleyway where it can connect to a vocal cord and create vibrations that allow it to be heard. I don’t think it’s my true opinions about half the things I speak about. But I am saying it; so it’s mine right ? It’s mine. If I break the rules with those words do I defend my wandering mine or do I sentence it to punishment. That sentence seems to be a decisive one the moment it leaves my fingers. Of course I’m punished. I’m punished because they hurt you. I didn’t mean to say them but I did so taken at that , it makes sense. All these thoughts flowing together it’s almost like an estuary of water. Just trying to mix. It will never mix right ? Well maybe it will but I’m on punishment right now so I won’t speak a peep. Tomorrow we can try again and we’ll see if we oppose each other again. I hope we see.

One step forward is two steps back. I didn’t know it at the time but I wasn’t going anywhere fast. Steps back in time is where I wanted to climb . But there’s nothing for me back there. I liked to think I was going to be a big actor or a great icon. That was something that almost seems impossible now. How could a small child have such large aspirations. Well those aspirations are nurtured. What happens if they’re not ? Then they become dreams. Dreams don’t come true. You make dreams into a reality. I didn’t make those dreams , I soiled them. I watched my reality second by second whimper into each day. My dreams were simply that dreams. HA such a funny thought the idea of doing “whatever you want” that seems folly to me. If I was doing whatever I want I’d be far away on a distant planet talking to aliens about the difference between cakes. Seems so dumb. But dumb was much more fun to ponder than real. Reality didn’t make sense, too much happened wrong. Too many wrong doings were done by the ones who claimed they had the best interest of those around. I wonder if they know that they’re just in a loop . A loop that only continued because well , two lefts will always have you in a circle and you’ll never experience a right turn if you don’t change path. But what happens if you don’t change path they asked me ? Well look at me now, one step forward and another two back. Stuck in time still thinking of my dreams. Dreams that will never be fulfilled, dreams that will be forgotten by tomorrow. And remembered by the night. No matter what happens that dream will not come true, it must be made . And these will not be made.

I love you so much I wanted to be your everything I learned everything i could in the short amount of time I’ve known you. Unfortunately I also made mistakes. I took to different routes to get closer to your favorite few. I wanted to be in your favorite few. I made mistakes and I’m sorry. I know I have no way to come back and I’ll have to say goodbye now Thank you for introducing me to you. Goodbye

I am happy to have found myself with you my love. You’ve taken me from just a lowly doctor to a man that can control and manipulate time. I take you from place of space to space of my invention. My invention is your intention. I will not let my imagination have an affect on your existence. I am simply here. My medicine is you. I survive off of you. The only way I can survive is to continuously interact with you. I must take my medicine. I am my own medicine man. My love I cannot let you drive me forever. You drive me insane you turn me into a drifted wreck only to park your essence in my head chest and neck, and I’m just a speck it’s unfortunate I guess. My speck is too small to take a breath. Selfless regret I guess. Something you said resonated with me and I don’t want to speak on it. The words I say they feel like they’re non stopping. They’re not even on the right path anymore. But thank you.

She yells I yell She yells back I scream back She yells at me why I am screaming ? I scream back why are you yelling? We both sit in quiet. No sound. Everything is calm Then someone yells again

To feel as if I am one half Is something to behold My thoughts enveloped in flame consciousness favors the bold Whoever gets to speak that’s the one I’m dedicated to having fun Fun ? Do you call this fun? Sitting alone late at night ? That’s fun? Well for me it is when my mind gets to see a new way out something that has more comfortability Comfortable for who ? For those who are afraid to move ? Those who are afraid to sacrifice their life. I’m not afraid. I’m me. I’m Pwofè