Moving On
My emotions are black,
Pure empty black,
All I can think is this is my fault.
Who else could be?
She was so mad
Angrier than a wet cat
Sadder than a grieving elephant
More worried than an overprotective mother
I deserved this
I deserve every single second of this overwhelming pain
Every moment she’s not here is because of me
Because I failed her
But I also know this wouldn’t be what she wanted
She would want me to move on
She would want me to honor her
Not grieve for her
She would tell me she’s in a better place now
She would tell me to man up
She would tell me to fix what’s been wronged
She would tell me that no one got anywhere by doing nothing
I know she would be mad to see me like this
I’m mad to see me like this
So I’m going to get up
I’m going to honor her memory
I’m going to let her leave