I hate this feeling

because I’ve been here before

No change since last time

like I’m dying for more

There is somebody else

a man in my ear

can’t force me to change

and won’t disappear

Maybe next time

when I’m faced with the choice

I won’t be ashamed

I’ll follow that voice

Then I can be whole

and perfect and real

I could do everything

I can do to heal

But I have one wish

that I can make for today

To ask him next time

to not go away

I hate this feeling.