the reaper & calm

there was no shock resonating through my body at this point. the reaper comes and goes due to my depression. i get so overwhelmed and death seems easy. however, someone always finds me right before i walk through the gate with the reaper. this time felt different. i was alone when i swallowed the pills. made sure to cancel my plans and turn off my locations. as the reaper took my hand, i smiled. i finally felt warm. rather than the usual chill that encompasses my body. the gate came closer and closer. i felt numb & free. the gate opened and we walked forward. there wasn’t any music like the books say, no break in the sky. just calm. the ringing in my head stopped, the buzzing in my feet dulled. i was warm & finally free