I dreamt of you last night

it was lovely

we were at school

i told you i missed you

and i was sorry

you said it was okay

you texted me later that night

i woke up

you weren’t there

come back

come back

come back

i want you to come back

i want you to tell me why you didn’t talk to me

i want you to tell me

why you would want to

tell me what i did

i don’t know

i talked to you

the day before school started

but you didn’t talk to me

why

why

why

please just tell me

it’s driving me crazy

The feel of your soft hands

on my skin

up and down

a soothing stroke

as you feel my arm

because i just waxed it

little did i know

that would be the last time you touched me

cuddles from you

better than my own boyfriend

could ever give me

your natural scent

a comfort i didn’t realize i needed

until we stopped holding each other

your lovely smelling hair

of green apples and something else

i can’t quite describe

i love your hair now

i wish i could be there

to tell you that

i don’t know why we don’t talk anymore

i truly wonder

you got me through one of the lowest points of my life

i will be forever grateful to you for that

you gave the best hugs

and had the sweetest voice

and oh god, i miss it

you seem sad now

i wish i was there to help you

but i’m not

i’m sorry for that

i wish you would come back

take me in your open arms

draw comforting circles on my back

like you used to

Does it ever occur to you

that maybe you were the one

who stopped talking to me?

i lost my best friend too

and i miss you

but you stopped talking to me

embarrassed me when i tried to talk to you

and you didn’t answer

just nodded your head

i smiled at you when i saw you

in the hallways

with my friends

i still wear your bracelet

the string is brown

and the letters are scratching off

the colors have worn away

like our friendship

but i still wear it everyday

i don’t really know why

it’s a comfort thing now

honestly

sometimes i think if i wear it

you’ll come back

but you never do