Time after time I’d complain about the circumstances of my life.

Whether it was me giving my all or the fact I loved with all my heart and still wasnt his wife.

I could never understand why this was happening to me?

I worked so hard externally and internally for who I am supposed to be.

Yet it seemed my life was in a turmoil and I was out of luck.

Feeling out of place or stuck in a rut.

Yet reflection hit me like a million bricks.

I keep going back to certain situations thinking they’ll be magically fixed.

Whether it was giving that toxic family member forgiveness for what they had done.

Or the ex I went back too multiple times, he felt like he was winning.

It seemed I was losing and my head was spinning.

Why no matter how hard I try to be forgiving it eats me up and spits me out.

But that was a lesson for me to learn about.

The awakening hit me and reality set in,

Do not let the wrong people within.

Prioritize yourself first and foremost.

And watch your life change and you’ll begin to grow.

The awakening set in,

Letting it go,

And letting something else begin.