On this mournful night I started to remember

That fading summer morning

the day was bright and sunny

But only death hanged in the air that day

The cries of family and friends filled the air

“He was so young” they weeded

“Why oh why” they cried

What a pitiful display it was

My dear brother your joyful life

Taken away from you in an unjust manner

Did you feel pain did you weep

I’ll never know

The ride back to the safety of our home felt heavy

mother and father spoken little words

Careful to speak your name

It felt unreal

It felt unfair

I felt hopeless

Now everywhere I go everyone around me

Say the same thing

“Sorry for your lose”

“He’s in a better place now”

Ha,like they can understand

they didn’t even know you like I

Even the bully from down the street changed

Putting up a mask to fool the others

Like he wasn’t the one to see the events unfold

It’s been a year now

And your memories are starting to fade

I fear the day I forget you

I fear the day I move on

I look to our family and your friends and wonder

How can they move on do they not still feel hollow

Do they not feel wronged

Or am I the only one clinging to the past

My heart burns with such anguish and rage

Why can’t I seem to move on

This burning rage in my soul

I can’t seem to shake it

All I seem to see theses days is red

Red from the roses that pile on your grave

Red from marks on my test

Red from My bitten lips

Red from my anger

Red from the visions of your blood stained face