I’m Not Brave
Brave
People have called me this before
But I’m not
I fight with my gut
like a dog on a leash
I say that I’ll jump
but then wait till next week
I only leap
when I’m too tired to fight
I chase the moon
only when it’s already night
I stick to safety
like gum on a shoe
I live to think
but then never can do
I’ll step off a cliff
but only when pushed
When faced with real risk
my spine turns to mush
But you moved across country!
Yes but
Only because my house
wasn’t my home
But you came out of the closet!
Yes but
Only because it’s death
being alone
To really be be brave I’d have to
Choose, to try
To trust myself enough
To kiss the familiar goodbye
So yes I’ve made bold moves but
I fought them hard first
Because my heart sees the good but
My mind fears the worst
I don’t take leaps without a tired inner voice
So don’t get it twisted
I’m not brave
I do jump
But only
When I have no other choice