“Camden!”

At the sound of my boyfriend’s voice, I froze. My hands, however, were still shaking, and I dropped the bottle into the sink. There was the sound of scattering pills before it all fell silent. I gulped, knowing I was in deep shit now.

“Camden.” Arian repeated, taking a step towards me, his voice stern. “What the fuck were you just doing?”

I knew my cheeks were flushed with embarrassment. “Nothing-“

“Camden. Lee. Miller. Do not lie to me.”

I withdrew into myself, my eyes searching for anywhere to stare but at him. I crossed my arms anxiously and took a step back away from the sink, just wanting to be as far away from Arian as possible. Why the fuck didn’t I lock the door when I came in here?

Arian stepped in front of the sink, and my eyes stayed trained on his shoes. The silence pounded in my ears as he picked up the bottle I had dropped. I could feel the anger emanating off of him as he finally turned towards me.

“You promised me.” He said, his voice strained, hurt. “You told me you had thrown these out.”

I had said that. I had lied.

I shuffled my feet, tears lodged into my throat. I felt that if I opened my mouth, I would cry. Arian turned back to the sink, gathering the rest of the pills in his hands. My eyes finally drifted up, but he wasn’t looking at me. He held a handful of pills in one hand, and with the other, he reached over and lifted the toilet lid up.

My heart dropped straight to my stomach.

Without looking at me, he threw the pills in the toilet. A strange noise left my throat as he flushed them down the drain. Yet I stayed frozen. He glanced at me, his eyes almost empty.

“Where are the rest?” He demanded. I flinched a bit at his tone.

“I don’t-“

“Camden.”

I withered. “Hidden in a t-shirt. In my drawer.”

He studied me, seeing if I was telling the truth this time. He must’ve decided to take my word for it, because he told me to stay where I was and quickly left. My legs seemed to give out from underneath me, because when he did come back, I was on the floor. He had two pill bottles in his hands, which he quickly opened.

“Arian, please-“ I begged right before he dumped them and flushed them as well. Only then did he look at me again.

“Is that all?”

“Arian-“

I needed them. I needed those pills.

“Camden, I am only asking you once. Those better have been it. If I search your room and find more I’m going to lose my shit. So you’d better tell me right now, are those the only ones you have?”

A tear slipped down my face. I was shaking too bad to even think about lying right now. Plus I had already caused enough pain today. I almost broke entirely when I said, “I don’t have anymore.”

“Are you lying to me?”

I shook my head. I wanted to throw up.

A few seconds passed before Arian finally got down on his knees in front of me. Tears were streaming down my face now, and my knees were tucked into my chest. I couldn’t focus on him, but I looked vaguely in his direction.

“I’m sorry,” I mumbled. And I meant it. I wish I didn’t need the pills. But my arms were itching without them.

“I know,” Arian whispered, his voice no longer angry.

His arms wrapped around me as he held me close. And we stayed that way. Maybe for a couple minutes. Maybe for an hour. Maybe for forever. But it was just me and him, in the silence.