The dreadful silence , it lingers on ,long after you’ve been gone. I couldn’t tell what was worse , the silence or the violence. Pretending I was dead, Ignoring me to the sickest depths of time. Or beating me down emotionally, Physically, psychologically and sexually.

The dreadful silence. I thought I was going _insane, _****From all the brainwashing gaslighting, and torture. Holding us hostage in our newly built home. You took all the keys and phones. I just had my close to 10th surgery . Instead of helping me, you starved me, and I found out you were cheating. But now I’m here all alone, in this black ,hollow hole. There’s nothing, just invisible me. In this void of emptiness. I turn on my tv, constantly for company. I cut at my hair, theres not much there anymore ,from my obsessive tendencies. Lack of sleep, of food, and death threats, a single mom so sick herself.

*_The dreadful silence _ Things are looking bleak. Time just bleeds together _ into a river of tears, from years Of suffering and misery. I wish I could skate away far from here. Hopelessly Hopeless& overthinking everything. Even the smallest of Things seem like major decisions for me.

_The dreadful silence _ I’m running around in fight or flight ,looking like I’m going crazy. I can’t sleep until it’s daylight because I have to protect my little boy. So I’m stuck on this hamster wheel And I can’t get off ,even when I’m In excruciating _pain. I’m _so tired I’m _Passing out , _but I keep fighting it. As this _dreadful silence _ has become a part of me, but, its becoming smaller and smaller every day .I focus on the good, and helping others. I’m grateful and blessed for everything. God has gotten me through, as always. I’m a Survivor!