**_The dreadful silence ,_**

it lingers on ,long after

you’ve been gone. I

couldn’t tell what was worse ,

the **_silence or the violence._**

Pretending I was **_dead_**,

**_Ignoring me to the sickest

depths of time._**

Or beating me down emotionally,

Physically, and psychologically.

**_The dreadful silence._**

I thought I was going **_insane,

_****_From all the brainwashing

gaslighting, and torture._**

But now I’m here all alone,

in this black ,hollow hole.

There’s nothing, just invisible me.

In this void of emptiness.

I turn on my tv, constantly for company.

**_The dreadful silence _**

Things are looking bleak.

Time just bleeds together _

into a river of tears, from years

Of suffering and misery.

**_Hopelessly Hopeless_** and overthinking

everything. Even the smallest of

Things seem like major decisions for me.

**_The dreadful silence _**

So I’m **_stuck_** on this hamster wheel

And I can’t get off ,even when I’m

In **_excruciating_** **_pain. I’m _**so tired I’m

**_Passing out , _**but I keep fighting it.

As this **_dreadful silence _**

has become a part of me,

**_but,_** its becoming smaller and smaller

every day .I focus on the good,

and helping others.

I’m grateful and blessed for everything.

**_God has gotten me through, as always._**

I’m a **_Survivor!_**