Watchers

Tonight they’re out in force

Noting my every move.

I feel a new remorse,

A guilt that they could prove.

I shouldn’t be hiding

Childlike in shadow.

A model guiding

My followers must not know.

My dirty secret

Would tarnish my reputation.

I am indeed a fraud

With a drug infatuation.

So forgive my addiction

I don’t want to influence your child

To become a cigarette smoker

I am myself beguiled