When I look in the mirror

I never see the full picture

I only see hatred

My unknowing love wasted

For myself

It takes me back to when I was twelve

I see the fragile young boy

I used to be

How little was he

To deal with the weight of his world on his shoulders

He would haul boulders

He was a soldier

Who just needed closure

He got through it

Bit by bit

And has escaped the dark claws of life

Not threatened by the knife

Now he lives as he should have

And he lets out a laugh

I enjoyed my life

It was perfect

The powerful drive

Of a young child’s energy

What are core memory

The way I smiled

Just a small child

The way I enjoyed the morning sun

It filled me with joy

But now when I look for it

I only see a dark void

The darkness I feel drags me back into its corner

Forcing me with its powerful order

To keep me trapped here

Filling me with utter fear

The way I would try to escape it

Only to be hit back with its spit

And I collapse

To its terrifying traps

The horrendous darkness inside

Now lays beside

I tried to get help

It it would attack me randomly with a yelp

My heart would burn with a fire

As it spoke with the tongue of a liar

Once I was able to, I leaped at the chance

To become a better man

It worked

But still I find

Myself going blind

I’ve gotten out of that cave

My feelings now gone, in the grave

Emotionless

Yet nobody notices

They are all too focused on themselves

Overworking at their jobs like elves

May this world hurt sometimes

May it commit horrible crimes

But yet you have it this time

Take it with a side of lime

And I promise

With an everlonging fondness

With an aching sharpness

That everything will go back to normal

As I am just a small mortal

Who has suffered many quarrels

Just your local employee

Or perhaps your enemy

I shall never know.

My story inspires you, I hope

So go enjoy yourself

As I escape himself

You are on top of the world

So let your wings unfurl

Fly into the real world

And hurl yourself through the bad times

And now, that’s why I am here

Didn’t give in to the fear

If I could do that, so could you

Even if you have to wait the queue

You’ll make it

Saying you won’t is just a myth

Now get out there

Take care!

Watch your back!

And listen to the air

Even when you only see black

You can always bounce back.