Talk to me while I suffocate

Look me in the eyes while I die

I am above you but only physically

Realistically I’m far below

6 feet to be exact

Watch me as the pain carves out my very being

Until I am no longer the person you remember

Go down this path of blood

Look at all the people nailed to slabs of wood

Cruel and unusual torture

For someone supposedly innocent

Watch me as the weight of the world-

and by that i mean my own body.

slowly

slowly

slowly

makes me crumple

You can watch as I’ll laugh with you one last time

You can watch as the tears rolling down my cheeks hit the ground

You can watch as my lungs fail me and I can no longer breathe much less scream

and you can watch as my eyes go dim.

You can watch me when they take my body down

You can watch me as it leaks all the things keeping me alive

You can wonder whether it’s a crueler fate to to be the one dead, or to be the one left alive

And through all of this

you can take

comfort

and solice

in the fact that supposedly

Everything is just the way that it’s meant to be