You didn’t mean it

And I did

you say that you did

But you didn’t mean it like I did

You didn’t

You didn’t mean it

Like I did.

When I said it

I meant it

Fully

And passionately

I meant I had been dreaming of it

Looking up at them

And watching them

Every moment they pass by

Wishing I could get a glimpse

Into their world

And what it’s like

Dreaming

Of a day

That I would be there

And I would get to live that world

You didn’t mean it like I did.

I want to be there

Through the past weeks

Dare I say the past months

I’ve been dreaming

That I would be there with them

Side by side

And we would do it together

I craved it

Passionately

Wishing

Pleading

But knowing it wouldn’t get me anywhere,

Not now

But maybe 

At some point

Someday

I’ll be in that world

And it’ll be mine

My world,

That I command

Not just one I’m a part of

And that’s kind of the difference

I would command it

You would be a part of it

So when we say

Those same words

We both mean it

But we don’t mean it 

With the same longing

You think it’d be cool

But to me,

It consumes me

Takes up all my thoughts

When they’re around

And I get to see it

That world

I feel an itch

Within my skin

And I feel it on my bones

A craving

I can’t describe

How bad

I feel I want it

How I feel I need it

It consumes me

You don’t mean it like I do.

Because when I say I mean it

It’s all I can feel

And it’s all I have felt

These past few months

So don’t say those words

Like we’re saying the same thing

Because we’re not

You’re saying 

It’d be cool

And I’m saying

I couldn’t live without it

Because that’s my world

And I feel it

Deep within me

It’s already a part of me

And something in my soul

Is already a part of that world