Sticky

Darkness

My mind loud

The thoughts

Racing

Through my past

Present

Future

My life flashing before my eyes

Though I’m not quite at death’s door

But the silence

It hurts worse than death

I try to drown it out

Music

Tv

Conversation

But in all these

There is still a

Moment

Of silence

A moment of silence

For the

People, places, things

I’ve lost

Along the road

Treacherous as the pilgrammage

Led by Moses himself

I am leaving the life I knew in search of better

And it takes faith

Which has always been hard for me

And it takes courage

Which I have in droves

Sick to my stomach

No matter what I do

I can’t outrun

The silence

When a joke doesn’t land

When my opinion is alone

When my story is too much

It lingers heavy in the space between me and you

I fall asleep with my ipad on blast

Music

Tv

Soundscapes to ease the

Loneliness

I hate being alone with myself

The thoughts in my head

Not bringing solace but

Despair

When I’m alone once again

When I submerge my head in the bathtub

When she took her last breath

I must trek on

Knowing that my foe

Is waiting for its chance

To rear its ugly head

Silence is my enemy

I choose to overstimulate myself

In the search

For peace