If only you knew

Knew the pain inside

inside my heart

my brain

my body

If only you knew how lonely I was

and how much I cry

If only you knew

I just wnat to sleep

if only you knew how much

oh just how much

I am struggling

like a fish out of water

I am chained to the walls

of misery

I am confined to the limits of my aching heart

and I am defined by my mistakes

If only you knew the pain and suffering

If you you saw the scars on the inside

the constant struggle

and fight

I want to not fight

I want to be ok

But i know it dosent work that way

If only new year really meant new me

but it dosent

If only

…

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