Fearful and agitated

I’m pacing, my minds racing

How can I face him anymore?

A God fearing man

But is there other forces at hand

What shall I do when the ball drops?

A master manipulator that’s me

I fell in love, I thought I changed

Programming my mind to envision progress

I’m still pacing because a secrets about to come out

Will he still love me even in the drought?

Can he love the truth?

I guess not.