Now don’t get me wrong

It’s sunshine and rainbows

But it’s falling over

And over again

I feel myself drifting

In oceans with currents

I can’t help from sinking

I blow with the wind

The mirror shows I’m taller

My mom says I’m happy

So why am I scared

Of feeling so whole

Like the half that I carried before him

Was easier to hold

I feel nothing but joy from my hair to my toes

But I long for his being as he gets up to go

This is life and it’s messy

It’s something to see

My friends call me laughing

I reach for his knee

His kisses are golden

His touch is alive

It’s strange I’m depending on someone outside