I let you down again.

That was never my intent.

I am sorry for the pain and trouble—

Can you forgive me?

I will not fail you again,

I swear it,

Despite my past.

I promise next time I’ll stand by your side;

Please, would you forgive me at last?

You are my everything,

Yet I’ve been a disappointment once more.

I know I’ve said it before,

Pinkies crossed in vows now worn.

I wanted to make you proud,

But once again I’ve made you doubt.

Deep down,

I know I’m the reason for your heartbreak,

Your hurt,

Please believe me—

It crushes me too,

Seeing you wilt in the dirt.

Your grew weary and frail,

Left with sadness,

By my thoughtless ways.

The pattern feels like a chronic ache;

Is it because I’m broken, beyond repair?

I don’t want to be this chaotic,

Yet I fear I’m lost, neurotic—

Wrapped up in myself.

Now I’m on my knees,

A soul heavy with sorrow,

While I self-dosed,

You stopped growing.

I ignored the signs,

Drained you dry,

Until,

This time,

Forgiveness ran out.