every morning I wake up

go in the bathroom

look in the mirror

think, hey wait

I kind of look pretty today

then I wash my face

brush my teeth

and put my contacts in

look in the mirror once again

oh

nevermind then...

I need the courage to tell him. I don’t have the courage. If this relationship will work he has to know.

A plan forms in my mind, a bad plan, but a plan nonetheless. I do not pull on my t-shirt, remaining in just my shorts as I bustle around the kitchen.

The knock at the door is right on time, exactly 16:00, and I let him in, then, feeling my plan about to fail, go back on it, grabbing my t-shi...

At a mountain peak nature speaks . But fears become heavy and the air becomes tight .

The mountain is too high to scale !

Am I going pale ?

Do I get up and bail ?

Just take a breath and inhale .

Doubt begins to sink as I begin the descent down , as I give in with a frown . As negativity forms a wave intoxicating my brain , but there only my determination to blame.

Try to distract me from the...

TW: Christian theme

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If I could just say the perfect words,

if I could show you.

If I could make you feel.

It all escapes me,

I shift under the burden

and try to wipe away the blood.

I rise to the occasion,

and pour out another shovel

full of dirt atop my head.

I bow, I stand.

I’m not the same anymore.

I’m not the shame anymore.

Make me burn again, Lord.

Make me the inferno,

the s...

Failure

The worst word I know

It burns in my thoughts

Stays permanently

Forever engraved

I see it

Behind my eyelids

In my mistakes

In my doubts

In my inactions

I hear it

A whisper of defeat

directly into my ears

making me believe

every word

I smell it

A gasoline odor

invades my nose

Pinch nostrils

to avoid the stench

I taste it

The bitterness lingers

The sour sting

that makes me cringe

I fee...

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Forgive me lord, for I have sinned,

Though I know not from what,

Perhaps it is my lack of sleep

That puts me in this rut,

I hear the devil’s words at night

Those fears he does incite,

Those spiders in my flapping skin

Awakening the blight,

Those nails, long and unabridged

That petrissage my nose

And leave my head in search of space,

My mind now food for crows

My thoughts are filled with viscera

An...

Yearning for peace,

a fleeting light,

In this endless sea

of endless night.

Lost in darkness,

Swallowed by sorrow,

Hoping never to see,

another tomorrow.

I’ll tear out my organs and intestines,

The useless things,

wrap them round my neck,

I ignore the stings.

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Sweet or sour?

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I let you down again.

That was never my intent.

I am sorry for the pain and trouble—

Can you forgive me?

I will not fail you again,

I swear it,

Despite my past.

I promise next time I’ll stand by your side;

Please, would you forgive me at last?

You are my everything,

Yet I’ve been a disappointment once more.

I know I’ve said it before,

Pinkies crossed in vows now worn.

I wanted to make you p...

Deep breath in and then let it all out in a running shamble of words,

Make sure the letters are all in the correct order and that you use the right verbs.

Wait that line is too long and those words don’t flow like they should,

Maybe if I go back and delete it, or start over, or maybe just maybe I could

Keep going and ignore the fact that it doesn’t sound right.

Maybe I could ignore that the lines ...