To my teenage self:

I’m sorry.

I’m so deeply sorry.

I regret putting you through the pain,

Only so the thoughts would be tame.

I’m sorry for selling you to the voices,

The ones that speak words of

“Eat less”

“They will notice”

“You’ll never be beautiful”

I’m sorry for leading you to addiction,

One that will remain within always.

I’m sorry for being selfish and cruel;

You were only a girl

Trying to live in a world

Where you found no love.

I’m sorry for destroying the only body you have.

Forgive me if you will, but I know I’ll never forgive myself.

~ me