“I‘ve always loved you! I always did what you wanted!“ i scream out while sobbing. I did it all for him. For the man with those ocean blue eyes. For these eyes behind those thick glasses which always made them seem more blue. I should have known those eyes were being manipulative. He takes one hand under my chin and lifts it up. Normally it would have seemed romantic, maybe even caring but this was everything but **that. **

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He slowly moves his head next to mine and whispers:“ Oh darling, you really thought i could ever love you? Someone with only dreams and trouble on their mind?“ He backs away as if i would burn his skin. With a sharp tone he continues:“ I’m a man of business. I‘d sell everything and everyone for my goals. Well, you were in my way and getting rid off you also got me some other bonuses.“

I feel how tight my heart gets, as if I’m going to die. My tears are streaming down my face. What an asshole he is. Through the veil of my tears i try to detect his face, his whole pride and joy. What if i hurt him so badly nobody ever will fall for his charm again? I don’t want anyone feeling the way i do right now.

I try to stand up on my shakey legs. I didn’t even noticed that i sat down. I take a few wobbly steps after him. I yell out to him:“ So you‘re also a cowards who doesn’t respect anyone‘s feelings?“ I exactly know his weak spots. My tactic works and he turns back around. I use my chance and kick him in his crown jewels.