it’s almost like i’m ur parent
i hear them say a girl needs a mother
but does that apply to me
does my mother make me happy?
and i know the answer to that but i try not to believe it
because my mother is the reason i cry
she is the reason i don’t sleep at night
she is the pain in my voice
and the sadness in my tears
my mother is the reason i want to get out of here
she is the reason im often burnt out
she’s the reason i go on runs
my mother is the reason why i date everyone
i don’t know what it’s like to be loved by a mom
but i know i don’t forgive you
i know that seeing little girls with there nails painted breaks my heart
because i know you never cared about me that way
i know it hurts me you don’t care that we’re apart
i know that i think about you on holidays and especially Christmas
i know i want to ask you so many questions
but i don’t know how
i know losing you wasn’t on my wish list
but i know it’s for the best
i know im not the one who needs to fix this
but i know ive always been the mother in our relationship