as I stared into the eyes of the person I once loved
every ounce of my affection turned into aggravation
for I am not the evil one
I try my best to be kind
l try my best to smile at strangers when they pass by
but I don’t need to blame others to feel content with myself
everything I say or do relates to my mental health
every day I step a little closer to forgiveness
Life is too short to f...
i woke up with a bang
the feeling of past shame
i am not her yet i feel like i am
the label of slut painted on my face
for i want to be loved for every part of me
my hair my eyes my smile even my personality
as long as im not used for my body i am content
but my mind will not allow me to run free
trapped in my bed
no motivation no empathy
no need to eat
staring at the blank page trying t...
I crave the attention that my mother never gave me
just like I crave that last bite of food before my calorie intake has been met
I’m constantly craving but I’m never achieving
I’m constantly hoping for love
and not the kind that is shown from words but is shown from actions
the kind of love that you get from knowing me
not feeling me
not me showing them how to love me
but actually caring a...
romantic silence
when just our eyes talk to each other
looks across busy rooms
knowing we both remember what happened that night
and hope that you won’t forget me
when you call me to say goodnight
praying this isn’t our last goodbye
hoping you’ll text me in the morning without begging you too
knowing i shouldn’t eat
but it comforts me so i do it anyway
i worked out today
and i tell mysel...
i hear them say a girl needs a mother
but does that apply to me
does my mother make me happy?
and i know the answer to that but i try not to believe it
because my mother is the reason i cry
she is the reason i don’t sleep at night
she is the pain in my voice
and the sadness in my tears
my mother is the reason i want to get out of here
she is the reason im often burnt out
she’s the reason i g...
your forcing your love on me
i dont want you
cause you dont know me
sure you want to feel me
touch me
but no you do not know me
i settle for nothing
so i can feel something
i want you to know my favorite color
i want you to memorize my full name
you shouldnt know how my curves feel
until you know my pain
no guys ever loved me like i’ve wanted to be loved
red flags of resistance scream...
hello, i say in my mind as our eyes meet in the halls
goodmorning, texts he sends me to start the day
goodnight, texts to end the night
he tried constantly to make me feel loved
but something just dosent feel right
he’s almost perfect and i cant tell whats stopping me
me
maybe its me
maybe im not in the right mental capacity
maybe
hopefully
our eyes will meet again when mine arent filled w...
i cannot love you
my mind has secrets like you do not know
and if i tell you them like i told him
i can’t risk letting you go
i cannot love you
i am a dry desert breeze on a cold summer day
your warmth won’t be the same if i stay
i have to leave now so our love won’t get in the way
i cannot love you
what if you don’t understand me
what if you shut the door on me
like how he shoved his sm...