A fairytale.

The thing every child dreams about, the one true epic love story, the happiness that lasts a lifetime,the happily ever after everyone is longing for.

All has been crushed in this very moment, within a few seconds, with just five words.

“I’m sorry for your loss”

No words can ever muster up the agony in losing a soulmate. The unconditional love that clings to them no matter their faults or actions. The promises that keeps you bound to one another regardless of what others may think. Decisions and sacrifices made merely on a possible future regardless of the fact that it’s unforeseeable.

All eyes were fixated on me as my mind abandoned me and my insides turned inanimate. The tears blurred my vision as I choked back a heavy sob. I felt my heart disintegrate in my chest leaving behind an empty, endless void. Nothing in a hundred lifetimes could ever come close to overthrowing the black hole that now consumes everything in its path, only growing as it feasts on my sorrow. The terror that trails behind me tormenting me every time I encounter your belongings.

Yet no one ever prepared me for the anger that lurks behind the grief. The constant thoughts of unfairness in this world invading my mind. The cruelty that can lead to one taking their own life. No one accounts for the suffering forced onto people, the words that shoot to kill just because someone craves power or because they may seek approval.

Sometimes I can’t help but feel rage cloud my thoughts. The never ending questions on why you felt taking you life was in any way justified. I understand it’s selfish of me to have such a heartless perception. But I think it was selfish of you to rid yourself from this world knowing what it could do to those around you, what it could do to me.

You left me to dwell in isolation as I drown in despair, begging death to take its course immediately. I began to feel the last bit of life drain from me as the floods of water filled my airways and swarmed my lifeless frame. Relieving me from this pain and torture.