“Hey.”

“Hi.”

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I’m sure I could talk your ear off,

once you get to know me.

and I’m positive you’d return the favor,

we’d be great friends, maybe more?

crushes on people

you don’t talk to

could be result of

loneliness, low

self-esteem,

or you just

seem to show

up like someone

I used to know.

Of course I had to

look that up.

I’m worried that

this isn’t normal,

I’m falling for a guy

with such a sweet personality,

but how do I know that

if he never talks to me?

someone said

you’d be the extrovert

to my introvert,

kinda wishing they’d be right.

well, I guess that’s just

another feeling to fight.

just another thing

I’m mad at myself for.

you’re good at everything you do,

at least from what I’ve noticed.

I wish I knew more about you,

because all I know is

you are insanely dedicated,

courageous,

smart.

and you like NF, too.

But I wish I knew you

like I know myself.

I want to know you

like a person,

rather than a bursting flavor

in my mouth, small amounts

that makes you savor

the tiny hints you take in.

Crushes are stupid,

but especially this one.

I observe people,

but that doesn’t give me the right

to go and fall for one.

_just another feeling to fight._

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had an attack the other day,

social anxiety in the place I met you.

but not because of.

I wanted to scream

at the top of my lungs,

run, try to fix my self-esteem.

I didn’t want you to see

me at my worst.

but…

you did.

and it just brings back the dirt.

Oh, just to be clear,

…that’s how I met cinnamon…

that’s how I met Damian.

and technically, you.

just another person to lose.