I Wish I Knew You
āHey.ā
āHi.ā
āāāāāā
Iām sure I could talk your ear off,
once you get to know me.
and Iām positive youād return the favor,
weād be great friends, maybe more?
crushes on people
you donāt talk to
could be result of
loneliness, low
self-esteem,
or you just
seem to show
up like someone
I used to know.
Of course I had to
look that up.
Iām worried that
this isnāt normal,
Iām falling for a guy
with such a sweet personality,
but how do I know that
if he never talks to me?
someone said
youād be the extrovert
to my introvert,
kinda wishing theyād be right.
well, I guess thatās just
another feeling to fight.
just another thing
Iām mad at myself for.
youāre good at everything you do,
at least from what Iāve noticed.
I wish I knew more about you,
because all I know is
you are insanely dedicated,
courageous,
smart.
and you like NF, too.
But I wish I knew you
like I know myself.
I want to know you
like a person,
rather than a bursting flavor
in my mouth, small amounts
that makes you savor
the tiny hints you take in.
Crushes are stupid,
but especially this one.
I observe people,
but that doesnāt give me the right
to go and fall for one.
_just another feeling to fight._
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had an attack the other day,
social anxiety in the place I met you.
but not because of.
I wanted to scream
at the top of my lungs,
run, try to fix my self-esteem.
I didnāt want you to see
me at my worst.
butā¦
you did.
and it just brings back the dirt.
Oh, just to be clear,
ā¦thatās how I met cinnamonā¦
thatās how I met Damian.
and technically, you.
just another person to lose.