I didn't want to see you,

Not like that, not so still,

Or feel your hands still growing cold,

No more to wipe the tears I spill,

I watched dad tell your babies,

I saw their hearts unfold.

The nightmare I had months before,

Is now my story told.

My plead was not to go home,

And witness what was left,

Your lipstick on the table,

The sofa where you slept.

I never even realised,

Each day you're hard at work,

Taking pills to mask the pain,

Fighting tears to hide the hurt.

I was so young and clueless,

And you hid it so damn well,

Away from little babies,

So none of us could tell.

Oh if only I could travel back,

And find a will, a way,

So you can't ever leave us,

So you will always stay.