Rain…
The storm begins
Hail comes down
It’s windy
It’s downpouring as the streets flood
I get ready
And go outside
Hoodie shoes sweatpants
I’m going thru too much
The rain soothes the pain
and let’s me free
I’m such a good person
But that’s not how people perceve me
I’m the bad guy in every book
I wanna be happy
I try
But when it rains
I go out there
It’s where I can cry without anyone noticing
It’s where I set myself free
I come out of my shell in the rain
I have so much running thru my head
I can’t control it
I tried to get help
It doesn’t work it never does
I tried talking to family they don’t listen nor they understand
Tis pain is on another level
I can’t control my head anymore
Pain and agony is all I feel
I sit in the middle of the street
As it’s pouring
I can feel for once again
It hurts to feel
It hurts to live still to this day
I see a car but the car stops
Why did it stop
It should had sped up
I’m still here tho idiot wanna be
My life has been nothing but cruel to me
And I wanna be good again
I wanna be happy again but
Regret pain and guilt
It’s always running thru my head
Why me why
Why can’t be happy
I can barely stand up or do anything anymore
I don’t have the energy to do anything
Except sit in bed on my phone listening
To music till I fall to sleep
I don’t wanna be hurt again
I don’t wanna be hurt anymore
I need someone to set me free
Tis pain makes me drown in my sorrows