The storm begins

Hail comes down

It’s windy

It’s downpouring as the streets flood

I get ready

And go outside

Hoodie shoes sweatpants

I’m going thru too much

The rain soothes the pain

and let’s me free

I’m such a good person

But that’s not how people perceve me

I’m the bad guy in every book

I wanna be happy

I try

But when it rains

I go out there

It’s where I can cry without anyone noticing

It’s where I set myself free

I come out of my shell in the rain

I have so much running thru my head

I can’t control it

I tried to get help

It doesn’t work it never does

I tried talking to family they don’t listen nor they understand

Tis pain is on another level

I can’t control my head anymore

Pain and agony is all I feel

I sit in the middle of the street

As it’s pouring

I can feel for once again

It hurts to feel

It hurts to live still to this day

I see a car but the car stops

Why did it stop

It should had sped up

I’m still here tho idiot wanna be

My life has been nothing but cruel to me

And I wanna be good again

I wanna be happy again but

Regret pain and guilt

It’s always running thru my head

Why me why

Why can’t be happy

I can barely stand up or do anything anymore

I don’t have the energy to do anything

Except sit in bed on my phone listening

To music till I fall to sleep

I don’t wanna be hurt again

I don’t wanna be hurt anymore

I need someone to set me free

Tis pain makes me drown in my sorrows