I’m tired of this

tired of wondering

if I’m making it all up in my head

if it’s just my imagination running wild

tired of crying

over you

over the past

over things that don’t matter

over things that matter too much

tired of thinking

and overthinking

about you and how it all ended up

tired of asking myself

if you ever even cared

or if I was just desperate

if I was wrong about everything

wanting to feel wanted so badly

that I made it all up in my head

tired of worrying

it’s all going to happen again

no one will ever want me

not like that

tired of not knowing

if I’m just going crazy

if I was wrong about you

wrong about everything

wrong about it this time, too

tired of pretending

I don’t notice what I see

or maybe it’s just me

maybe I’m the one that’s crazy

tired of feeling

like I’m going insane

like there’s something wrong with me

because I don’t know what’s happening

I don’t know why it’s happening

I just don’t know

I’m tired

my head hurts whenever I think about it

I feel like crying

whenever I see your face

or hear your name

I wish you knew what you did to me

even after this long

I still care so much

I’m tired of caring so much

when you don’t even care at all

you never did