I wish I never took that chance

I wish I never let you in

I wanted you

But you turned the other way

My heart pounds every time I see you

My boyfriend

Clueless

Still no idea of the dark thoughts that swarm me at every hour of every day

It squeezes and compresses

My skull, aching every time I see you

That night was surreal

I’m not sure it even happened

All I know is that you took a piece of me with you that night

You still haven’t given it back

It’s been over 6 months

So why haven’t I moved on?

My heart aches for you

As my boyfriend lies curled next to me

Our love though is forbidden

No one can know for we would be ridiculed

I still think you flirt with me but who am I to know?

I thought I did last time

I only wish that these thoughts would leave

For me to be happy

But you are always there lurking in the shadows

I can’t get you out of my head

But I was quick to leave yours