i forgave you over and over again.

convincing myself that you’d change. one day i thought it’ll happen…

but that day never came.

i went to war with myself.

i was out of the battlefield everyday, trying to find the good in you.

are you aware how long i looked?

i searched for hours on end digging and digging.

eventually i was able to reach the bottom.

there was only darkness, an empty black pit.

i fell to the ground screaming thinking this couldn’t be it.

there has to be something for me to find.

something for me to continue holding onto.

clinching onto my shirt, i struggle to breathe.

the nothingness i found was the answer i needed.

i found nothing because there was nothing.

there wasn’t any reason to hold onto you an longer.