Leopards never change their spots

And you can’t teach an old dog new tricks

But I don’t hold my breath until you text me back

And my chest doesn’t ache when I wake up in the morning

I still cry to the same songs

And forget to put on sunscreen

But I don’t hang out with people who make me tired anymore

And now I stay quiet when your name comes up

I get angry

Just as angry as always

And I still feel my smile twitch when someone hurts my feelings

I still mourn the friendships that ended

The inside jokes that make me ache as much as laugh

The things that remind me of people whose voices are blurry

I love everyone I’ve loved

And I still feel bad for my own hurt feelings

My heart is heavy

But I’d never trade a heavy heart

Because even though its weight hurts

I know that means it’s full.