Leopards never change their spots And you can’t teach an old dog new tricks But I don’t hold my breath until you text me back And my chest doesn’t ache when I wake up in the morning I still cry to the same songs And forget to put on sunscreen But I don’t hang out with people who make me tired anymore And now I stay quiet when your name comes up I get angry Just as angry as always And I still feel my smile twitch when someone hurts my feelings I still mourn the friendships that ended The inside jokes that make me ache as much as laugh The things that remind me of people whose voices are blurry I love everyone I’ve loved And I still feel bad for my own hurt feelings My heart is heavy But I’d never trade a heavy heart Because even though its weight hurts I know that means it’s full.