Tired, early waking

Wanting to do well

But feeling myself failing

Extra hours, preparing

Shoulders searing,

Body and mind

Crying, yelling, for a break

Grueling day followed by

Fear at night

What if I can’t do this

Hours now of this sickness,

Rendering me weak

And utterly broken

Finally, I reach out to you

Why do I always forget

You are my life line

Time after time

Help me once again

Like I know you did before

Cancel out this fear

Cancel the despair that

Lingers with me still

Some of it I’m attached to now

The pain reminds me,

Only of great love

Don’t eliminate it, just equalize it

Equal part good, equal part bad

It’s part of me now

Maybe it always was,

Maybe it wasn’t

Either way help me find my way,

There,

To the place where I am strong

This path has been so long

But I’m looking for something new now,

The power of your hand,

That is where the true journey begins