I’m holding my breath today,

Why? I’m not allowed to say.

Trying to survive in this mess I created,

Bringing back anxiety I reinstated.

Crawling on my knees,

Stinging from a thousand bees.

I don’t wanna wake up anymore,

Insanity is burning at my core.

Give me mercy for the will to plead,

Don’t hold me back from doing the deed.

Needles are digging deeper under skin,

Staying sterile for the sake of wretched kin.

I’m in danger, we’re all in danger,

But every two of us are a stranger.

Plaster the hurricane blowing full force,

Tearing me open as I’m knocked off course.

I’m in so much pain,

Yet there’s nothing to feel, nothing to gain.

Just feed me with whatever I’m worth,

Words and words, I’m about to burst.

Oxygen pulls tight around my rib cage,

Fluttering nonsense and my world’s a stage.

But will it ever end in this hatred of state,

It’s hard to breathe and I’ve fallen too late.