STORY STARTER
What conflict or challenge does the main character face in their faith journey, and how do they overcome this challenge?
Consider how they learn to trust or find courage in their faith.
Temptation Of Mistrust
“What do I do ?——“
It’s hard…I’m trying my best to not to stumble on these words. Do not say it…DO NOT SAY IT !!!! I SAID DO NOT SAY IT, DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT !!!!! THAT’S WHAT SATAN WANTS ——-!—-
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How did I end up facing such a situation ?
It is written “Be anxious for nothing”.
Oh I’d wish it was that easy
They say individuals
React the way they react
Because of their mindset
So is my mindset wrong ?
Am I contemplating into the incorrect direction ?
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My mind has started again—
I loathe this
He keeps bringing words to pull down my morals
If it was only my moral, it wouldn’t be so astrocious
He is also trying to get my star
Along the dust of the deep
I cannot speak sadness, unbelief or agony
But they keep bellowing repeatedly “SAY IT, SAY IT, SAY IT!!!!!! NOW !!!”
Consciousness is at risk
And so is my faith for pleading out loud
The sole medium that keeps me spiritually sane in these moments is our talk
Yes, our talk
“Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit~”
I called your name like a young child narrating his worries to his precious mother
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The first thing I wanted to do
Was to transfer our talk to a brethren
But you always come first in line
No matter what
And these are the kind of seasons
Where people fail
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Although I wasn’t hearing your sweet voice as a means of consolation
I was hearing your life-filled words through my soul
There we’re like melodies to my spirit
At the point in time
I was between two territories
Both eager to drag me in
One was noisy and appealing
The other was quiet and onerous
I had to pick one and leave the other
As I kept singing lyrics of faith
My soul was slowly but surely
Gravitating towards the serene environment
Oh God, I want to trust you with my whole being
But why is there so much difficulty in times of trouble and distress ?
I thought that my beliefs were enough to command the earth to open her mouth and swallow the unrepentant personalities of the world system ?
So why ?
I was thinking north, south, west and even east but there was none to be found there
It was an entirely different orientation to where you were taking me
I bit my lips hard, thought and thought and thought and thought and thought and thought and—-Urgh!!
I was trying to keep up with you so much
I want to cry ——I’m about to shed tears of uncertainty and fear
But I’ve not completely lost it, not yet
Don’t I have enough wisdom ?
But I know I do
Do I sound controversial ?
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I don’t know what to do, think, say or react
I’m lost once again —
Why ?
You said that if I call on your name, you would answer -….
My heart is running in all frequency bouncing from one place to another
My body is tense and every single strands of my hair are grincing their ends with untrustworthy anticipation
My senses in all that ?
Is it possible for senses to stop functioning for a bit ?
Because I feel like this is what is happening
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All I wanted was to serve my God with the whole of my heart
Am I doing something wrong ?
I’m not thought !?
So why are all hands of my own blood pointing at me as if I was at fault ?
I didn’t do anything wrong !!!
“Faith”
It’s a heavy word—-it’s more weighty than I thought
If persecution is necessary then let it be
I’m a cry of a soul
I cried to get where I am
I’ve let go of my temporary happiness
So I might as well just give up on every other thing
For your sake
I remember that day when I deleted my sweet vainly stories that followed me all through out my childhood….We were inseparable but now separable.
Haha I cried and I cried until i couldn’t hear myself mourning—
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I’ve learned something today
/Faith and audacity we’re partnering this whole time/
My spirit is back to his usual demeanor
I’ve allowed him to take control
I feel like I’ve entered into
Another dimension of peace
So is this what it feels like?
What an irony, I was so anxious
For everything not too long ago
But what is the difference now ? Can you tell ?
God, i didn’t know that the test of Faith was that challenging but thank you because I made it till the finish line
26/03/2025
(The day I got into issues of life)
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