« I promise you with the whole of my heart that I’ll never ever leave and will love you forever. I’ll promise this with my life. »
That’s what you told me with full assurance and alacrity two months ago. My body resonated with each words as my mind was floating in a basin of ecstasy. You are the panacea for the issues of life, my source of pure bliss and a field of euphoria that is unquenchable.
But—-
« Anna…? What’s wrong ? » he asked
Why is your contenance and the vibration of your spirit playing a different instrument than the usual “you”.
« No, I should be the one asking you. What’s wrong ? » I replied with an undertone of meticulousness as I was looking deep into his brownish eyes that seemed to be betraying him.
« I don’t get what you mean ? Nothing is wrong. » he replied confused
How strange, everything is portrayed as though nothing has been moved from the jigsaw puzzle. The physical facade is the same. The climate is the same. Your smile is the same…
«Anna … you’re scaring me—-Did something happen ?» he expressed with a worried and perplexed look
Yes, this is just my imagination. Just my imagination…right ?
« My mistake, I’m just overthinking. Don’t mind me» I continued « By the way, Glenn is still green» I muttered with a smile as my side dimples were popping out.
I stroke his head with tenderness. I shifted my body to start out my usual duties. At this point in time…
You chuckled and you said—-
« Haha… Glenn is green ? Where did you get that expression from ?-»
«…..»
My whole system froze. My expression was left intact yet shivers were screaming out in groaning as they were ascending and descending. It happened again, you were producing a different tune. However this time, you were indirectly throwing at me confirmation of the signals that happened to be whispering at me. The treeshold of these indicators are building up nevertheless I want them to break free.
« Hugo, I want you to call me by my favourite nickname. Remember when we were spending time on our third date. ~ »
I have now entered into a physiological play determined to find the anomaly on the jigsaw and you, Hugo, need to partake on it. Cues are my advantages and time my disadvantages.
« Your favourite nickname ? Hmm …wait..let me try to remember..» he pondered with an innocent demeanor
Surely, This is the ideal moment to open up the curtains.
I stare deeply into his eyes, even my breathing was following the tempo of my natural instincts. Not wanting to adventure into the unknown but I had to decode a mystery.
« Oh ! Isn’t it My Little Legend !?~ I remember, you couldn’t get enough of that nickname~» wow, such an expressive and genuine laughter
Bravo….If I could clap, I would clap. He remembers, it’s him. The tune returned back to his normal format but not the instrument.
I caught it—- Finally—-
…. .. .
If eyes could commit trahison then it would be better for them to be plucked out. I can see them vibrating. That’s not the main thing that fooled you. The moment you entered in, I knew something, your aura perhaps, that had being modified. You lost and I won. It’s too early to declare triumph yet. Now that I’ve found the bad piece of the puzzle…
« I don’t know how you got that nickname, but Hogo stopped using it after our second date. » I uttered in a slow yet slighty shaky voice
I continued despite the thick and soundless atmosphere forming..
« Who are you ? »
———-END
« You’re just part of a game and I’m part of a reality. This is a Goodbye »
Such a brutal yet pragmatic statement that cannot be forgotten.
How did we arrive to such a stage of fate ?….
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She looked at me with endearing eyes and a questionable demeanor.
“What is it about me that you love so much ?”
Her voice sounded low like the waving of the sea. If it was describable, I would compare it to honey that hasn’t been savoured yet enticing to the sight.
At that time, i couldn’t help it. My heart was flying in other enigmatic dimensions. I had to gaze away to avoid exceeding the line that she’d set between her and me. How unsettling
“….”
I couldn’t answer, it felt like opening my mouth to say something would amount to me commiting a sinful act against love nature. If there was something such as a pendulum that keeps ticking louder and louder then that would be myself.
«Answer me, I want answers. Not silence”
Yes, she has bought me back to earth before my soul reached cloud nine. I am grateful but ungrateful at the same. It would have just been the best for the both of us if I were to loose consciousness on the spot. Does the kind of feeling actually exist ?
«Look away then»
Out of all answers I could possibly come up with, this was my top pick when I was in such a vulnerable state.
In my surprise, she looks away and —I took advantage of that.
I slide my hand on her cheek and lean towards her ear whispering slowly.
“I can’t really give you a reason. All I can say is that I’m drawn to your soul”
Have I become a poet ? I never knew that love could bring out something that I never knew was in me.
Her cheek was slighty burning, her lips were lightly trembling, her eyes in confusion looking at my direction.
Hmm—I want to see that expression again, again and again. Using the word “adorable” would be such an understatement of the memory my mind is currently capturing.
I place a gentle yet passionate kiss on her ear knowing that this might challenge that boundary. I’ve definitely lost it——-
«I want you to be mine, there is no point hiding it anymore. Don’t you agree ?»
I was the one who couldn’t utter any word a few seconds again. It’s now her turn. Role swap but with a sweet twist.
The setting was there at the right frequency and at the right time. The sun was illuminating both of our faces. The sand was warm at our feet and the sea…she was humming wonders in our senses. The cherry at the top was her mere presence leaving kisses to my soul.
I lean in the more but towards her face this time. Should I go for a kiss on her cheek now ?—
«U-uh»
She place her hand on my mouth and her face seems to have travelled from the realm of a beach of peaches to an island of apple trees.
I chuckle almost on the verge of laughing a melody of pure happiness. She also couldn’t resist the temptation and an unwanted smile merged at the side of her lips.
«Don’t you know what this means ?..» she mutters with glitters on her eyes
"I know what it means~”
I respond with a warm smile on my face even the wind responded to such expression. The expression of a man who could die of happiness.
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The “me” of that time would have never thought that our destiny would part away like that.
“Don’t leave …please…Ruby—-don’t do this me …”
When was the last time my heart bumped this tremendously ? Breathing has become hard and standing almost impossible.
The image that was set before me was like a stoic paper performing the unnatural such as being teared apart with no force exerting on it. Her whole body was disappearing in flakes of a yellowish shine and she offered me her most sincere smile yet full of sorrow and melancholy. Her tears themselves displayed a sense of grief that couldn’t be consolated.
The setting was the same but what changed exactly ? It looks desolate and out of his natural order of contentment—-
She was half, just her other half was left and i couldn’t do anything to exert dominion over the situation. I am helpless——she was helpless too but why was she looking at me at though this situation was the best answer for our circumstances ?——Circumstances you say ? Do I actually exist ?
“I’ll miss you Raphael….”
These were her last words.
You might be wondering what I was feeling at that time….I have no idea—-and I would never want to know.
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